The Adventure of Life

“I could see how my life was going to be 20 years from now. I knew exactly where I would be, what I would be doing and I didn’t like what I was seeing at all.”

I was listening to my friend carefully, at the same time reflecting on my inability to answer the simple question “what are you going to do this weekend?”.

There we were; the two extremes: one who could see everything about his life in the future and one who had absolutely no idea, not even for the following day.

Around 20 years ago, I had my entire future before me: a very organized, safe life. I felt unhappy even at the thought of it and I left the country (and that future) immediately.

Not knowing where I am going to be is not at all scary. For me, insecurity is not about the future. It is about the here and now: how to overcome the difficulties of an adverse environment. The future? It can only be exciting, like an adventure, and I do not need to know every part of it, like in all genuine adventures.  

Rediscovering (one more) Passion

From a pleasant coincidence today, searching for a specific surrealist painting, something wonderful happened: 
I remembered how as a child I became obsessed with Picasso's cubist paintings,

 

Pablo Picasso, Dora Maar Seated 

how as a teenager I fell in love with impressionism  

Claude Monet, Woman with a Parasol

and the impact that van Gogh's self-portraits had on me. 

Vincent van Gogh, Self-Portrait 

I remembered how as an adult my passion for art was reignited when I moved to Barcelona and my excitement of walking around Miro's sculptures and Gaudí's buildings. 

   

Joan Miró, Dona i Ocell     

(source: http://www.flickr.com/photos/oh-barcelona/5101454183/) 

                                              

          Antoni Gaudí, Casa Batlló

I remembered the joy I got from working on my presentation on the Fluxus movement and the enlightenment I felt I was earning by each new exploration. 

Fluxus Manifesto

And while I was remembering all that, I felt my spirit more light and alive, my mind wandering happily through shapes, colors and senses, I felt peace and joy. 

I have always loved art and I have always felt passionate about it. Why did I let this passion fade? 

So, here is one more non - resolution for me to add to my list: to do something daily that nourishes my spirit, my soul and my senses.